The past few months have been trying for me. A new season of my life is beginning while another part of my life is ending. Difficult to not work and live in both realities. New beginnings are a blessing, yet I mourn the loss I have suffered.

Making a difference this time is my commitment to God that I won’t lose. Falling apart because of my loss, not losing my job due to depression. These historically would rule my life. This time is different.

It recognizes a pattern that must brake for a real change. Yes, the pain of loss is some days overbearing. Do I allow the suffering of something to overtake my life, possibly destroy it again? Or do I ask God to show me a new way? I chose God!

For me to break the cycle of my life, it’s time to trust in something more than myself. If you read my work, you will hear me say over and over “live in your head, you’re done,” live in your heart, and you’re free.” I’m not suggesting you don’t use your head to walk a clear path. What I am suggesting is you look to your soul for guidance down the road.

When you take God’s will over your will, that is when change, blessing, and more than you could imagine beginning to happen. Call that which is not into existence in your life now. Thank God for prayer for the grace you seek. For example: “God thank you for my renewed life in you” even when you don’t feel that, call it into your life. Be grateful for that which you cannot see. I do this every day, and the changes are genuinely life-changing.

You can choose to live the same, and you call the shots. Everyone has free will to do as they please. What I mean about living in your head. Reach deep inside you and ask God to change your life. If you do, this God will bless you. I have had miracles happen that have put me to happy tears. Set in the work to change your life, it’s worth the investment!

If you are sick and tired of being sick and tired pardon the cliche. Then why not try a new way. What have you got to lose? The answer to that is you will lose a life of depression, loss, and turmoil that has devastating results. Choosing a life that has meaning is what I’ve done. Sharing through my writing my journey, not to convert you that you will have to decide on your own. I can bring you to the water it’s up to you to drink.

Beginning this journey took a real commitment. Saying change and creating change are two different things. Work will have to be done to evoke change. Quitting when things get tough NOT an option. The old you will fight with a vengeance to destroy the new you. Prepare yourself that the journey to come will require tears, endurance, strength beyond any you’ve put forth in your life.

Amazingly you will come through. If you slip, start over, if you wreck start over, if you cry begin above, if you quit entering again, but don’t give up! When I am complaining, lost, and hurt because change is kicking my ass. I reach out to God and say, “I may be wavering in my faith, I may cuss the heavens because of the pain, but God, I am not giving up.”

Journeys are not without obstacles. Don’t for one minute think you can’t overcome what the enemy puts in front of you. You can, and you will overcome. I did many times and even now struggle to hold on to my faith. Your faith will be tested. Keep an understanding that in your heart you will many times say “I’m not losing this time.”

Changing of the seasons in our lives can be challenging to understand. For me, the last months have been hard. I had indeed hoped to fix the Brocken problem, but that is not to be, it’s not God’s will for my life. So, accepting God’s will over my intention has been hard. If I am ever going to have lasting happiness, then I need to follow God’s lead.

For the average human, we want to control everything. When it comes down to it, we don’t manage jack squat. Life is going to happen despite our efforts, especially if life doesn’t go your way. Accepting that God controls my destiny, that if I in my heart allow that. Life opens in ways I never dreamed.

It hasn’t been easy to accept God over my own will. It continues to be a challenge that I give to God regularly. Doing something your entire life and changing the course of your life is like turning a massive ship. You must be careful, and it does take time. Patience is a virtue, believe me, when I say, it most certainly is, so stay in faith even when you can’t find hope.

 Allow God to direct your steps. You will have the life you deserve! It’s that easy.