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Who is the Enemy

Does the Devil Exist? Not the stereotypical Devil in the movies.

My life has never really been around the church or too caught up in religion. Never really understood what it meant to have a spiritual life. I made fun of bible thumpers and religion. That comes from ignorance. It’s easy to make fun of something you’re ignorant too.

Fast forward fifty odd years to today. For a time, I studied metaphysics, enjoyed Wayne Dyer, Deepak Chopra, and other spiritual teachers, just putting my toe in the water. I attended a few classes, did some fun work. Learned meditation, yoga, and visualization. Never really got the deeper side of spiritual life.

Few more year’s pass and life took a giant dump straight on my head. Oh, indeed this is my doing you understand. You can’t blame your life on anyone but yourself. Take ownership of that. “Own that shit”—Harley Quinn.

In debt up to my neck, separated from my wife, past due with the IRS, and the list goes on. This time in my life at times got very dark and hopeless. Hopelessness brings about dark thoughts about does your life even matter. Who would give two shits’ if you were gone? Scary times.prayer,faith, spiritual

When you’ve hit rock bottom, it does lend itself to the revaluation that maybe you might need help beyond earthly help. Don’t have the money for therapy or any mental health care. Going to have to bootstrap help if I wanted it. So, begins my journey back to finding some spiritual peace.

This time I chose to seek the church. Didn’t want so-called organized religion but wanted to the Bible-based teaching of God’s word. What promises did the Bible hold out that I could have? Was I even deserving of any peace? With nowhere to turn I got on Joel Osteen’s website and looked for a Church close to me. I do like Joel Osteen and read all his books.

As I began to search out God, my depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts went out of control. Man, I could not believe how hard I was crashing. It was worse now than it had ever been. I would cry wondering “oh my God what did I do to piss you off this bad?” What I came to learn from wonderful folks in my Church this was then enemy attacking my thoughts, not God.

No, my head does not spin, and I don’t spit green vomit at the priest (for those of you that have seen the Exorcist). It took me a few weeks to grasp this. The attack in my head was not God punishing me at all. The Devil is keeping me right where he has had me most of my life. In a depressed state, with no hope.

The question for me became what is causing my life to for a time rock along all is well to falling off a cliff? Why do I continue to fall short in my life? For me, this took falling to rock bottom. To losing what I loved the most to finally saying to God, there has to be a better way. What do I do God?

So begins my journey to find a spiritual awakening. How do I find peace? How do I find the life that the Bible promises? You’ve heard part of my answer finding a good church family. The second part of this is research into the why of my life. Why do I fail at just about everything? Not a pity party this is a real question I believe for all of us.

When I would share my feelings with people in my Church that have what I am seeking, true faith in God. I would say why is God punishing me so hard? To the point of dark thoughts against myself. The pain is beyond what at the time I thought I could endure. One person in my Church explained to me this was an attack by the enemy. What did I say?  The enemy who is that?

Okay, so you’re telling me the Devil lives in me. Oh, great I’m possessed. The reply is NO; you’re are suffering from an attack in your mind. The enemy wants you to be depressed, he wants you to lose everything, and he would even love for you to do something stupid. Wow, this was a lot to swallow, but it made sense.

We have a choice to believe the enemy who is a liar above all. Or, we can choose to believe the word of God and have the life Jesus bought and paid for with his. The attack on me continued to get worse.

Times I would be sitting in my truck and scream at God “WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?” Where are you get in the game? Again, the enemy is filling my head with doubt. When you calm your mind (I do in meditation), then you can begin to feel God.

What helped me to understand this is Napoleon Hills book Outwitting the Devil. All of us love and have most likely read Think and Grow Rich. This new book did not get published in his lifetime. His family waited some thirty years to publish it. I will not spoil it for you, but it’s an eye opener from a beloved author. It helped save my life in many ways.

Another person who has opened my understanding of how a spiritual life works are TD Jakes. One of his sermons had me crying in thanks because it made sense to me completely. Let me paraphrase what I heard. “The enemy’s attack is not punishment, the enemy’s fierce attack is because he is afraid of you, he is afraid of your power.” The enemy is about to lose you from his bond in your life. Anytime, you speak the truth, God’s word or praise over your life. Expect, him to put garbage in your head to change you into his thinking.

Take time to do some preparation in your life for a change. Don’t do it alone! Find a Church that you feel comfortable with attending. It may take visiting a few, but you will find one. Get involved with folks you see that truly walk-the-walk pardon the cliché. Read and study all that you can. Always have in your mind that at every corner and turn your head will be telling you, oh this is stupid. All this faith and Church stuff is bologna. That is the enemy!

Here is where you have to get out of your head. We have to learn to live from your hearts, our soul vs. our head. Learning to receive God in our hearts, this is where you will find peace. Don’t scream I can’t do that, yes you can. It is the hardest thing for me as well.

Find a place where you feel at peace. A lake, pond, Mountain View, fountain, anywhere that makes you feel at peace. Where you can find God to speak to your heart, this is where you will find peace. The enemy has you in your head with you trying to figure everything out. Faith is giving all your cares to God and letting it be. The enemy will tell you “you better take control, life is about to get WAY worse if you don’t  do something about it.” That’s all horse manure. Go to God in prayer, don’t BEG! Thank him for already blessing you with that which you desire.

 Always pray as though you already have that which you need. You will come to learn that all God asks is for your faith. Show him you are faithful even when it looks like disaster is imminent. Don’t lose faith no matter what!

The enemy lives in your head; God lives in your heart. Learn to decern the difference and life will truly change for you. It’s not hard, but it’s a battle. The enemy will not give up easily, but I know in my heart that if you stay strong in faith, God will pull you through. Have an open heart!

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Give Up Control Have Faith

One of the hardest things for me to let go of is my wanting to control aspects of my life. If you’re going to have faith in the Universe (God) you have to let, go. It can’t be a negotiation with God over what part of your life he will run and what part we will run.

 No matter what we must give him full control. It does not mean that you say okay God I need my life saved because of this issue whatever that might be. Then do nothing. It will take work on your part to have the patience that God works in his good time.

Learning to become a better person, doing good works in your life to bring a better you to the world. Worry about that over what the outcome will be. The outcome is completely out of your control. The moment you say I got this and you impose your will to that which is in disarray. Nothing positive happens, form that.

We must learn to live not in our head but our soul. You must think about this for a while. How do I do the work?

Here is an example of working in faith:

Let’s say your marriage is at total risk of divorce. Separated, not talking it’s terrible. You want to call your spouse all the time, trying to work it out. How do we get through this time letting God work through us? Let’s say you know you want this person, you know you want the marriage, but the other partner does not at this time.

Here is how we work from our spiritual side and not our head.

 

  • Pray to God for guidance for YOUR life. Ask him where he would like you to be. Don’t beg him to fix your marriage, never begin prayer. He hears you, don’t beg.
  • Start doing things that bring a better you to the marriage should it come to pass that you get back together. Read books, go to therapy, pray for God’s will to be done in your life. God’s will not
  • Allow for time to pass. If it’s God’s will for the two of you to be together, you will be. Be open to the idea that maybe this person is getting moved out of your life so that your destiny can reveal itself. You don’t know! Let life open to you, not because of you! Think!
  • The pain you suffer will pass. It’s the equivalent of someone passing away when we lose a spouse. Don’t listen to all the garbage in your head, “well if I could tell them this, they would understand” stop it now. If you look to the trash in your head, you will lose for sure.
  • Have faith that no matter what happens your life will be better for this trial. If you get back together and all is well. Or if you end up divorced and life presents a NEW season for you.

If you seriously want change, then you must be willing to change. Some pain will come to our heart. Here is the real kicker. It may not work out but on the other hand, it might. Have faith that everything will turn out just as it should. Be open-hearted to receive God’s favor.Happy, Marriage, Spouse

However, should you desire change to happen naturally? Then who knows what life has in-store for you. Believe me, and I do understand the pain of a breakup. At times it can be debilitating. We have to look up and say “okay God I don’t understand, and right now I don’t get it” then be willing to help ourselves, but let God handle our outcome.

I don’t doubt your pain. What I can tell you is if you follow in faith that life will open up to you as it should, life will get better. It will begin to get better quickly with faith. You may have to talk to God hundreds of times a day. That’s okay. He has an open ear ready to hear you. In situations like divorce, financial and loss we tend to beg God. Don’t beg in prayer.

When you pray, have it be about the outcome you desire. “I thank you, God, for the healing you have brought to the hearts of my spouse and me.” Pray as though you already have that which you desire as if you already have it. Don’t ask for something to be fixed; it already is through your faith in God.

God will unfold for you the destiny of your life. That may be something completely different than what you expected. The fantastic news is that it will be bigger, better, more joy, more peace and so much more than you could have ever supposed to happen. That is the fantastic gift that awaits you if you will only have faith!

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Spiritual Warfare

Life can be difficult to navigate when we live in our heads. Our head filled with doubt, and hundreds of demons from our past. We’re in spiritual warfare. The enemy takes over your head, he can’t take your soul, but he can get into your head.

Difficulties will come hard, and they will come fast. This warfare inside your mind is a battle you can win! Tools of the warfare given to you in the Bible. For those that are screaming “I don’t have a Bible, I don’t read the Bible; I don’t like the Bible, hang on this article will help.

Two ways we can live. In our head or our soul. If you suffer now, it’s a result of trusting your head and not looking beyond to the spirit that lives in you. Become the person you need to find to live the life you dream. Finding a spiritual connection in this life provides freedom. Notice I said nothing of religion or religious. I’m not asking you to convert I am asking you to find your higher power. For me that is God.

If life is in turmoil, you don’t see a way out; your depression is debilitating. The odds are against you as we speak. Are you just going to lay down and let this wash over you? Or would you like to learn to fight? Hopefully, the later.

The fight that is going to come with some real pain. I tell you this from my own experience. It’s also what I have heard from so many folks suffering as you do now. Everyone has problems at some point and time. Each of us has been to the brink of disaster. Anyone that suggests their life is rainbows and butterflies one hundred percent of the time is hiding the real pain. None of us are without sin or pain.

Our head will tell us there is NO way out. Here is where the fight begins. Believe NOW as though what you suffer from is fixed, done, complete, over and you are happy, joyous and free of pain. If you see your life the way you want it EVEN THOUGH IT IS NOT IN THIS MOMENT, life will start to change. Don’t for one minute think it will change overnight. Know this, going to take some real work, and we’re going to fight your mind hard. The enemy loves for you to be in pain. He will fill your head with fear.

When I talk about the enemy being in your head (NO you’re not Reagan McNeil) this is the spiritual warfare I speak about in this article. God lives in your heart, your soul. The enemy likes to reside in your head where the real garbage can be put to do it’s worst. When we impose our own will that is the enemy tricking you into failing. Think about it your head got you to the point your at today. How about some relief?

Praying as though what we want already exists even though we don’t have it yet. Try this it’s extremely powerful! Here change will begin. You have to believe in your heart that you have the life you want, even when everything is crumbling around you. Don’t see your life in turmoil. You will only delay your change.

Seeing your life in a right way and not a negative way takes real patience and faith. It will be difficult to see a happy life when in turmoil or pain. Dig in, if you want out of the pain, dig in. What I have done to help us learn to meditate and quiet my mind. When you can slow down the whirlwind that our minds can become. Fantastic peace can begin to happen. Seeing in our mind’s eye a life we desire.

Meditating will take a little practice, and your head will spin a bit for a time. It’s okay everyone has to practice. That’s why they call meditation a method. I like to lay on my bed lights out, with headphones that help drown out ambient noise. You can find tons of meditation music on YouTube. Find relaxing music that will help you do just that relaxing.

Your head will race for a time, just breathe and relax during your meditation. Ask God to be present, begin to see him sweeping peace over your life. As you meditate daily view yourself in the life, you would choose to live. See yourself happy, see yourself prospering and let go of all the garbage. Faith believes before you see it. It’s opposite of what our heads will tell us.

To win the spiritual battle in your mind, you have to believe in something you don’t yet have. The price of admission to a happy life is faith. The amount of confidence believes before you receive. Giving up in the face of adversity is not an option!

The attack in your mind will come hard, don’t despair. It’s habits that have chocked you for years, they won’t just stop overnight, but you can manage. The harder the attack in your noodle the more magnificent the blessing is on the other side. One thing that was truly hard for me to get was why does God let me suffer. He is not, and God only gives us what we can handle. I can hear you screaming “I can’t handle it.”Yes, you can.

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 If you will believe that when you don’t see a way a way will manifest. Now is when a change will begin. A significant difference in wishful thinking and faith. You have to put some action into your life. Just saying something does not make it so. Setting the work in will activate your ability to manifest a pleasant experience. I wish I could tell you that hoping for something will make it so, and it’s going to take work.

Don’t get caught in the trap of “it will never happen to me.” Here is the way I look at the lottery. They say you have a better shot at getting struck by lightning than winning. Someone eventually wins. So it’s not impossible because someone does win. Your odds of getting out of a dangerous situation are indeed less than winning the lottery, but you see my point. Nothing is impossible. You can even get struck by lighting.

Everything we’re discussing up to now that has to do with fear, doubt or your thinking you can’t do something. That is all conditioned in your head by the enemy. It’s time to break that bind. When you get a negative thought in your head, tell yourself reality is “fortune and glory kid”—Indiana Jones. No, seriously you can change your life’s trajectory if you choose too.

When you begin to live in your soul, drawing from the spiritual side of your life change can happen. Get your head out of the equation and listen to the universe, your God. Amazing transformations will begin to occur. You will have trials, times where life seems unbearable. Times when you want to give up because you think in the natural world it’s too hard. Take one more step, take ten if you have to because change is just around the bend.

Don’t give up in your darkest moments and God will manifest a life for you that dreams do come true. If God can put stars in the sky, I am pretty sure he can get you through what troubles you. Get in faith, do what’s before you and dream big. Don’t be afraid to ask for something you might think is enormous, remember God created the Universe so unless you’re asking for a solar system, again I am pretty sure God can make a way where you don’t see a way. You have to have unwavering faith!

When times are tough to remember everyone has problems, not just you, I do we all do. It’s temporary, and God loves you!

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I Ain’t Going Down No More

This walk we take through life has curves, cliffs, mountains, snow, ice, you name it your mind can put you in a dangerous place. These are the things that we run into in our mind. I love the saying that turmoil is the price of admission for a beautiful life. We all have something to learn from our pain. I don’t like pain any more than you do, but we can work through it.

I remember a scene in Rocky II when Rocky is fighting Apollo Creed. Rocky takes punch after brutal punch, knocked down time and time again. Rocky stumbles back to his corner face swollen, bleeding seemingly out of steam and Rocky tells Mickey “I ain’t going down no more.” He finds his strength out of being beaten down, hit again and again. The power to go on. Not to quit.God, faith,

The point is if you’re getting your ass kicked by life it’s time to say “I ain’t going down no more.”

Okay, I hear everyone saying sure easier said than done. You have to ask yourself if you’re saying that “Have I had enough yet?” Say it, say it NOW! Tell the enemy to get out of your head, you ain’t going down no more.

The first thing you have to come to terms with is that enough is enough. NO matter the pain or turmoil in your head. Get to a place in your mind where you can make quite the spirit. The only way I can tell you to do it meditate. You can find free guided meditations on YouTube, put on some headphones on close your eyes and listen. Feel yourself relaxing. If you have to play it ten times before you begin to feel something do it.

Here is the trouble you may run into. We’re all I WANT IT NOW people. So what happens is people quit. They stop just at the moment change is going to happen. Successful people will tell you why they’re successful is they’re willing to take one more step than you are. You can’t quit. The enemy will fight you tooth and nail to beat you. Don’t live in your head live in your soul. Your head will jack you up. Your soul is where love, abundance, and relief live.

Your head will trick you and leave you in a terrible place. Open up your heart, your soul to find real peace. You can do this during meditation, connecting with God, the universe, Devine source, or a higher power. When you join with whom I call God during meditation a whole new world opens up, “I ain’t going down no more.”

See yourself in meditation, happy, abundant and living the life dreams are made of. It can happen. Don’t quit too soon. There is NO quick fix. You have to own the pain when you do you hold the world. “Own that Shit”–Harley Quinn. Peace will come during meditation if it takes a little time it will. Let your mind go to God, divine source, you will find peace to hold onto.

Don’t tell yourself it’s too much. NOTHING is too much. Here is a terrible example of pain, loss of a child. The terrible sad truth is life will go on no matter how much we don’t want it to at that moment. Pain is pain, is pain. The loss of someone is the most unbelievable pain we can experience. Yet the sun will come up tomorrow. You can’t stop fighting to get out of your difficult situation. You can’t lose faith when there is nothing to hold onto but faith. The hope of change may be all you have right now, take it, own it. Peace is coming I promise it is.

This is why you have to connect to a Devine source. Sometime’s there is no real answer, especially when we lose something as precious as a loved one. I use this extreme because most problems pale in comparison. If you’re reading this and you have lost a loved one my heart goes out to you.The loss is painful, but it will pass even when you believe it won’t, it will. God be with you.

For most problems when we’re in the middle of them, the pain can be daunting. So massive we can’t see a way out. I have very recently gone through this. My life is turned upside down, finances are in turmoil, family, the list goes on. The enemy has taken my joy on many days, where I was just a mess. Bulldozing my way through has been a struggle. I have been knocked down time and time again in my own head. It’s not real, it’s the enemy who will try at all cost keep you down. DO NOT LISTEN!!!

We all hear change is not easy. No, it’s not, but you can do it! I have had days where it’s so black in my head, indeed a dark place no human wants to go.

Never give up. I don’t care how much you think you can’t I am living proof you can. Get off the canvas stand up and fight. You have it in you I know it in my heart.

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Pets For Hope

I’m starting a series on Pets For Hope. How a pet can bring peace and harmony to a home. Pets are such beautiful souls that can fill a sad and lonely heart with love. So I thought it would be fun to write about my dog Glitzy. Share the joy she has brought to my life and the people Glitzy comes in contact with.

Glitzy is about 6 years old now. Glitzy is half Chijuajua and half Pomeranian a ChiPom. She fit into a coffee mug when we first brought her home. She was very little the runt of the litter, but she was sweet to us when we were choosing her. She also had amazingly beautiful fur and markings.

As she grew, she became very attached to me. It might be because every day when I came home, I would love her and keep her with me all the time. She always slept next to me.

Keep in mind I really did not want a dog, but she totally stole my heart. We became inseparable. All the reasons that I didn’t want a pet went out the window. To much trouble, messy and the list went on. dog, pet, lonely

Each day when I come home she greets me with a joy that only a dog can bring. Nothing but pure love hits the door. She doesn’t come to the door and complain her bones were not plentiful enough, the house was too cold, she simply comes ready for me to pick her up and receive the kisses she loves to give.

She has taught me how to pick up bones when she throws them off the couch or bed. She barks at me to go for walks so she can have a treat. Her new thing is to go out the door turn right back around go to her treat jar and bark. Sneaky little thing.

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Glitzy Watching TV

I am not sure how but instinctively she knows when it’s my day off. She will not let me leave the house without her. Days I go to work she gets back up in my bed and curls up with the covers. She will literally jump off the back of the couch at me if I am walking towards the door. Needless to say, most places I go so can she.

She loves TV!

If you’re living alone, going through a divorce or whatever life circumstance that may have you a bit lonely. I encourage you to go to a local shelter and just see. Play with a few dogs and see what comes of it. Pets quickly become family.

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