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Why is God Pissed at Me, He Is Not

“Although God loves us unconditionally, He does get angry at sin, wickedness, and evil. But He is not an angry God. God hates the sin, but He loves sinners! He will never approve of sin in your life, but He always loves you and wants to work with you to make progress in living a holy life in Christ.” — Joyce Meyer

When I started seeking God’s help in my life, I would think because things were not happening he was pissed at me. I was somehow not deserving of God’s love. Believing that God correct at me for my sins.

God does not punish you. Where you need to seek God’s word is in all aspects of your life. Whether you watch YouTube video’s, read your bible, or attend Church. What I lacked was education about God’s word. When I spoke to people in my church saying God is so pissed with me. The first answers always “No Honey he is not pissed at you.”

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 What I have come to learn is that is the enemy wanting me to have no faith that God cares about me. He will deceive your mind into thinking you are not worthy of God’s forgiveness. Not true under any circumstance.

Having this knowledge up front would have saved me a lot of misery. Knowing that the enemy seeks to cloud your judgment. You may have to go through some things, but God is with you. He has not forsaken you; he hears every word you utter.

In the beginning, for you think about it this way. If you were going to change something about yourself, let’s say you want an MBA from college. You must take some classes, have training, study and pass tests for you to earn your MBA. Deserved gifts don’t come to you without working towards that goal.

God cannot change you overnight. You didn’t get into a mess overnight, and you’re not going to change overnight.

You may think if things don’t change right now my life is about to blow up. Fear of loss will cloud your good judgment. Hard for me to understand, how could God let my life fall apart? So far, he has not, my financial and family life is still in some turmoil. What I have come to believe in God in his good time will reveal to me my destiny. Knowing in my heart his promises when delivered to me will be more than I could have ever asked of God.

Each day is a new blessing of some sort. I have not lost anything; the world has not come to an end. So, settling down and trusting God has brought peace in my head. The problems are still here, but they’re not insurmountable in my mind anymore. God, gives me what I can handle every day.

Don’t freak-out over a life event. Most things are not that big a deal, we just in our mind make it so. If, however, you were just handed some terrible news I do understand we all have a moment with that. God will carry us through the darkest moments. Find some pastoral care. Seek out professional care, lots of fantastic Pastoral counseling services available.

When an event comes up in our lives, rest easy it’s not God’s doing. For a long time, I thought God was punishing me anytime something terrible happened. The enemy would love for you to subscribe to this thought. He wants us to suffer! You will if you don’t see yourself, healthy, happy, joyful and in God’s loving arms.

Don’t let the enemy consume your life. I did, and it put me in very dark places with myself. Had to fight my way out. It’s not an easy battle when the enemy thinks you might get saved to a new life. He will challenge you to the death if necessary. You have free will so that statement is horrifying indeed.

I’m not stronger or weaker than anyone reading this. We all suffer from the pain. No, it’s not easy and hurts like hell. What I can tell you is that if you fight through whatever it is, you suffer from at this moment. You will find peace. Believing that God is working behind the scenes to heal your life. Faith is not free you have to fight for it. Even when you don’t think you can make one more step, take the damn step it’s your turn to WIN!

If you don’t believe in God yet then fake it til you make it, you will come to find peace. DO NOT LOSE this battle. You will feel something if you keep going. I cannot emphasize this enough. Your mind will play tricks to the point of disaster. There is NO disaster if you believe. How many stories have you heard where people were healed from Cancer, addiction, heart failure or after years of trying a woman got pregnant and blessed with a beautiful child. We’re all miracles if we genuinely believe we are.

My own life, God, brought me back from the brink of disaster. Is it smooth sailing every day of course not? Was it without work on my part heck no. It took real stamina to stay in the fight, but I did, and you can too. Do NOT sell yourself short as I once did. God is not pissed at you for your past. Your past does not define who you could be today if you chose to.

Each day you breathe air is a good day. If that is all you can be grateful for them, God will take it. All God asks of you is unwavering faith in him. Will you slip and fall, absolutely you will. Is God going to punish you for it NO? Go to him and confess yourself and you will find forgiveness from God through confession. The cool part is you will build strength, so you don’t fall again doing the same thing. That is growth!

Let me burst another bubble for you. God is not impressed with your wealth, status or lack thereof. If you truly want what God has all that is necessary for you is a belief in God. Become the person you dreamed of being; it’s in your grasp if you bring it to God.

I struggled with this for so long. As humans, we’ve been conditioned to be suspect of things we cannot see. What I have come to learn besides God is not pissed at me for my past. If I look closely enough, God works miracles in my life every day. He puts things in front of me that if my heart is receptive, I will look up and tell him to show off.

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Get Ready for a Spiritual Title Fight

When your feet hit the floor in the morning, let the Devil say, “Oh Shit He’s up!”

Our minds can exhaust us to the point we feel like we’ve been in a heavyweight title fight. Pardon the cliché, but you are sick and tired of being sick and tired. What I want to prepare you for is the title fight that is coming. The enemy will see a change in you for good. All the sudden you went from being depressed to having hope.

Jesus paid for your sins on the cross. I am not going to pretend to be a theologian and quote scripture. What I did do is start attending a great Bible-based church. Began to study the word of God. You have protection from the enemy; you can yourself cast him out of your head (No you’re not Reagan McNeil from the Exorcist). God supplies all the tools you need. You must show up for work.

 Part of your job will be to follow the path I am laying down. Find an excellent Bible-based Church. Not hard to find and you may need to attend a couple before you see one that you feel is home. You will need the tools, and foundation for Christ to win the fight to come.

The enemy will come at you hard. WHY, because he is afraid to lose you to the right side. He wants your soul; he wants you to fail! You have free will so that it will become a choice. I would cry so hard thinking God seems pissed at me for all the things I have done in my life. Losing hope that God wanted anything to do with me. NOT TRUE! Learning from the study, Church and the Bible God loves me. It is the enemy that has the hold on us, not God. Rest easy dear friends. It is good and evil in this world it took me a while to understand.

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Sharing this first thing will sound a bit scary. You will have a better understanding that the difficulties to come are manageable with the right tools. God says, “No weapon formed against me will prosper.” Remember you have all the promises the Bible says we have. You must start believing with unwavering faith. God wants you to think about it before you receive it. Try it; this is where I stumbled hard.

Friends would tell me that God will never give you more than you can handle. I hated hearing that. The problem is it’s true. You can’t fight for the heavyweight championship of the world without getting knocked on your backside a few times. You will find the strength just as I did. Even from the darkest depths of your mind, a path to peace is available for anyone who seeks order.

Women readers who are moms can relate to this. Labor pains are excruciating, but the result is the greatest joy of your life. Once you go through labor and deliver yourself from hell, you’ve created in your head. The sooner the greatest joy in your life will be at hand.

Remembering always that the enemy will fill your mind with doubt, fear, this will never work. What happens is when you believe you’ll quit. Then the enemy wins. The only loser in this fight is you. It may seem as though God is not listening to you. He is, I thought this so many times. I would scream at God in my vehicle “get in the game” why are you forsaking me. He is not; the devil is treacherous in your mind.

 You will learn to live with your soul, not your head. The mind will never win over your destiny. What you can control is how quickly you see your future reveal itself. Frustration, hate, anger, despair, will only cause you to delay your life moving forward. You must begin to see yourself happy, joyous and free of pain. Don’t scream “I can’t do it.” If you do, you’re right. None of this is easy to hear; I get that!

What I am telling you is if you get knocked down get up. Tell yourself NOT THIS TIME; I get to win this time. Get that loser mentality out of your head. It won’t come all at once. You must recondition your mind for good. If you have suffered for a long-time change won’t happen overnight.

The mind will fight you to the point of utter exhaustion. During a marathon where you will hit the wall many times. Just like marathon runners, you convince yourself that it’s a mind trick it’s not your reality. Reality is you already have, peace, love, and happiness. We as Christians must learn to accept it. You think acceptance would be easy, for most it’s not. Stay in faith even when you don’t seem to have faith in anything. Tell God you don’t see a way, but you trust he will make a move!

One of the most important things I can tell you. Don’t help God, don’t impose your will on a situation that needs Gods hand not yours. For example, separated from your spouse. It’s a situation that you did not want, hit you out of the blue and you’re heartbroken. You call your spouse saying I promise I will change; I love you, please let’s work it out. That’s imposing your will. It’s not you are helping even though you think you’re fighting for your marriage. STOP!

If you want to trust God for a change in your life follow along in this book, I share what mistakes I made so you can have greater insight. You need to believe that God is handling the heart of both you and your spouse. You are jumping in does not help. Trust that if you give your marriage to God, asking him for his will be done. Someone asked me two questions:

  1. Do you want a perfect, loving, happy marriage?
  2. Do you want your spouse back with no change?

Relationships meant to be will be. Maybe, God is moving this person out of your life to make room for your deep down in your soul dream come true person to appear. When we let our destiny unfold naturally what a blessed life we will have.

It’s not always easy to see clearly during times of adversity. Remember we’re in a title fight for our life. The enemy will put horrible, terrible things in our head or before us. We can get betrayed; our life shattered into pieces.

How you get up and tell the enemy “that’s all you got” I have the power of God almighty who controls my life. A quote I love, “when your feet hit the floor in the morning, the Devil says oh shit he’s up. “Anything beats living a life of misery. It’s where I am at, and I pray you are too. Now is our time and “I ain’t going down no more”—Rocky Balboa

The fight will come hard, but if you keep reading, you will find the help you need to get up and fight even harder. The tools you will learn will make those fights fewer. Your spiritual armor will see you through.

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Stay strong because God is getting ready to show out in your life in ways you could never have imagined. Your blessings are on the other side of this battle; what was meant for your harm God will bless your life in ways that only he can.

The stronger the attack, the bigger the blessing. Crazy, but when you get kicked right in the gut hard. When you walk trusting God you know, he is getting you ready to show out in your life! The pain you may encounter along the way in strengthening your resolve. Helping you be able to face anything the enemy throws in your approach to disrupt your life.

Everything I am writing about I have experienced. So, if you’re saying what does this guy know about my pain, he won’t understand what I’m going through in my life. It’s because I’ve lived it same as you.  I choose not to lose any more! Hope you come along!

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It’s Time to Change

Life is so seasonal when you genuinely think about how things turn one way then another. A new season in my life is beginning while another ends. It’s sad to let go of part of your life. Like so many say you can’t look in the rearview mirror and expect not to crash.

We’re supposed to say God is moving our life around so that our destiny can reveal itself to us. I get that it’s not easy today. What I had hoped would be a lifetime has been cut short. Many of the what you shouldn’t dos are running through my head. What if’s!

To indeed move forward I have come to understand that if God had blessed that which now he is changing. Then things would be status quo. Today its hard for me to follow God’s plan. The good news is that at least I’m open to change. That acceptance of what is out of my control is a good step forward. Sometimes we must allow life to change. May hurt or sting a bit, but it will get better.

More to the point its actually with some peace that I can let go. What do any of us have to lose if we just let go and let god, pardon the cliché? If life were perfect, then none of what is happening in my life would be occurring. Everything would have stayed the same. The old me would have lost all hope.

In the midst of some pain, I can see more light than dark. Sure, who does not want for things to change in their life when it’s a painful change. It would be awesome if the difference were I was a millionaire, that type of change is most welcome.

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Through my spiritual study what has come clear to me is that my life has a purpose. What that purpose is can sometimes hide from my site. For a good reason, it is hidden. We have to be prepared to handle this part of our new life. If we have not grown or found some new wisdom we feel, then we missed the point. How could we ever expect to succeed with anything new?

If you have reached a point in your life as I have, changing even though painful to my heart is the only real choice to make. What the heck have we gone to lose? In my mind, it’s failed other ways maybe it’s time to think from the soul and not my head. Follow a higher purpose than myself. Believing today through faith, I will be happier and find real meaning in all my relationships.

This time I’m not losing. I’m changing no matter how painful it is sometimes, how hard the past clings on in my head. It’s time for a real change, a new outlook on life. I have begun to see miracles occur for me, and true blessings come my way.

It’s time to change!

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Idle Time Sucks, Let’s Change That

Idle time sucks. Your head gets filled with garbage of the past and anything else the enemy can throw up to remind you of darker times. Thus keeping you in the darker reaches of your life. Hence idle time sucks. I want to share a couple of things I am doing to find peace during idle time.

Today for me is one of those days. I had good morning closing two new clients, so that had me bouncing on cloud nine. Always great to move forward in business.

Then the day grinds down to a halt. My head begins to run amuck. Wow, let’s relive every mistake I’ve made in my life. Reruns of my life seem to be on a projector that just loops and loops.

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So, to get me out of my head. I said down with my laptop and started typing. At least I recognize what’s going on with my noodle. Question, why can’t we be okay during quiet times? So many of us struggle with being okay with being alone in our mind.

Yes, I have confessed my past that I am not proud of to God. When I’m busy everything rocks along, and I am to busy not to be at peace. Sometimes though it would be nice to be quiet, be in the moment but be okay. I am the problem in this scenario. We can choose to be happy or sad, but it must be a choice.

Today is also the first birthday I have spent in many years alone. Or at least without my wife. So, it’s been a good day for many reasons and a sad one. Reliving everything I have done, should have done, argh! No, not self-pity moment, but one of realization. Everything going on today is a choice. Recognizing that is the real achievement in my life.

Every day we all must make choices to be happy or have a bad day. The difficulty lies in your head. Living in your head causes all kinds of issues. Choosing to live in your heart, in your soul where God is now that’s a choice. A little easier said than done, but entirely within grasp.

What I do every day now is take moments to embrace God, search my heart for peace. I do this on my morning prayer walk at work. I walk outside for a time and talk to God. Visualize me happy, prosperous and at peace. Peace began to last longer and longer in my days. I don’t choose to recognize mediocrity in myself anymore.

Choose to walk in faith as I do every day. It truly helps, and you will begin to find peace in your head. Idle time will be something you look forward to not dreading. I pray you find the peace we all have from God. Have a blessed idle time day!
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Staying Strong Tough Times

The past few months have been trying for me. A new season of my life is beginning while another part of my life is ending. Difficult to not work and live in both realities. New beginnings are a blessing, yet I mourn the loss I have suffered.

Making a difference this time is my commitment to God that I won’t lose. Falling apart because of my loss, not losing my job due to depression. These historically would rule my life. This time is different.

It recognizes a pattern that must brake for a real change. Yes, the pain of loss is some days overbearing. Do I allow the suffering of something to overtake my life, possibly destroy it again? Or do I ask God to show me a new way? I chose God!spiritual, prayer, family

For me to break the cycle of my life, it’s time to trust in something more than myself. If you read my work, you will hear me say over and over “live in your head you’re done,” live in your heart, and you’re free.” I’m not suggesting you don’t use your head to walk a clear path. What I am suggesting is you look to your soul for guidance down the road.

When you take God’s will over your will, that is when change, blessing and more than you could imagine beginning to happen. Call that which is not into existence in your life now. Thank God for prayer for the grace you seek. For example: “God thank you for my renewed life in you” even when you don’t feel that, call it into your life. Be grateful for that which you cannot see. I do this every day, and the changes are truly life-changing.

You can choose to live the same, and you call the shots. Everyone has free will to do as they please. What I mean about living in your head. Reach deep inside you and ask God to change your life. If you do, this God will bless you. I have had miracles happen that have put me to happy tears. Set in the work to change your life, it’s worth the investment!

If you are sick and tired of being sick and tired pardon the cliche. Then why not try a new way. What have you got to lose? The answer to that is you will lose a life of depression, loss, and turmoil that has devastating results. Choosing a life that has meaning is what I’ve done. Sharing through my writing my journey, not to convert you that you will have to decide on your own. I can bring you to the water it’s up to you to drink.

Beginning this journey took a real commitment. Saying change and creating change are two different things. Work will have to be done to evoke change. Quitting when things get tough NOT an option. The old you will fight with a vengeance to destroy the new you. Prepare yourself that the journey to come will require tears, endurance, strength beyond any you’ve put forth in your life.

Amazingly you will come through. If you slip, start over, if you wreck start over, if you cry begin above, if you quit entering again, but don’t give up! When I am complaining, lost and hurt because change is kicking my ass. I reach out to God and say, “I may be wavering in my faith, I may cuss the heavens because of the pain, but God I am not giving up.”

Journeys are not without obstacles. Don’t for one minute think you can’t overcome what the enemy puts in front of you. You can, and you will overcome. I did many times and even now struggle to hold on to my faith. Your faith will be tested. Keep an understanding that in your heart you will many times say “I’m not losing this time.”

Changing of the seasons in our lives can be difficult to understand. For me, the last months have been hard. I had indeed hoped to fix the Brocken problem, but that is not to be, it’s not God’s will for my life. So, accepting God’s will over my intention has been hard. If I am ever going to have lasting happiness, then I need to follow God’s lead.

For the average human, we want to control everything. When it comes down to it, we don’t manage jack squat. Life is going to happen despite our efforts, especially if life doesn’t go your way. Accepting that God controls my destiny, that if I in my heart allow that. Life opens in ways I never dreamed.

It hasn’t been easy to accept God over my own will. It continues to be a challenge that I give to God on a regular basis. Doing something your entire life and changing the course of your life is like turning a massive ship. You must be careful, and it does take time. Patience is a virtue, believe me, when I say, it most certainly is, so stay in faith even when you can’t find hope.

 Allow God to direct your steps. You will have the life you deserve! It’s that easy.